16 SePTeMBeR

5 minit lg, 16 September akan berlalu..spt sebelumnya, date ni akan dtg n pergi..lame sy termenung dpn lappy, xtau nk tulis ape...yg pasti sy hrpkan date ini akn memberikan seribu makna kpd sy setiap thn...

Byk ucapan selamat yg sy terima..Alhamdulillah, ade juga org igt n tau date ni..sbb date ini bkn sj bermakna pd sy, tp pd seluruh rakyat Malaysia, keran date ini la bermulanya penubuhan sbuah negara baru i.e Malaysia..

Mlm td sy cube tido awl, kerana sy tau sy akan sedih hr ni (hehehe..mcm biasa, sy akn menangis sbb sy telah melepasi thn sblmnye n akn melangkah ke thn seterusnya..yg mane sy xtau apa cabaran akan datang..)

And, thn ni sy lebih sedih kerana sb lain..sbb yg dah pon ditentukan tuk sy..smpai di office, Mama tnya how i'm feeling today..ofcourse i fell bad...sy citekan pd mama ape yg sy rs(mama is colleague yg sy aggp mcm mak sy sendiri..yg byk mbantu sy di saat jatuh n bgn sy..sedih n happy sy..)

Kata mama 'sy masih menunggu die..sbb tu sy bersedih'..menunggu?myb betul n myb tak..myb sy cume mgharap ianya diingati...perhaps as a courtesy for our story before..but, it won't happen..not sure whether it has been forgotten or it intentionally not to be remebered/delivered. what ever the reason is, i hope its still be remembered and will be remembered forever...

kata mama lg, it is normal to fell like i am..it will takes time..n i will recover soon..bcz ready or not, it will all come to an end..an i hope, i will reach the end state immediately..for me to move on..as he already has his new life...

Like it or not..he has left..n has somebody else..sbb tu i must try my very hard..to let it go..as i know that feeling...

Mama psan lg, jgn terus bersedih, sedang kan die bahagia..protect ur self..u deserve to be happy and u'll happy in your own way..redhala..setiap yg berlaku ade hikmahnyer..thus, sy akan terus senyum pada die, pada dunia and pada semua..

Hari yg bermakna pd diri sy..mungkin akan jd permulaan pd new life sy..sy akan terus berusaha dan berdoa smoga sy dpt lalui dgn tenang, aman and bahagia...

P/s: thanks for those who had not forgotten to wish my besday..May All bless u all..

*I'm so sorry...i just feel better when i write smthing..and i hope he/she does not read this..bcs this entry does not meant for them...its means for my futur..to have a wonderful life ahead!!!